i took a trip to monster land.. i saw monsters big and small.. lolz0r.
school was pointless today.. went for 1 hour, for dfund lab.. then went to tampines..
fuck.. POSBank is damn annoying.. i wanted to make a debit.. well i did. but the stupid woman
sucks at customer service :(. because i told her i wanted the POSB debit card.. which is the orange one which can be used online which ISNT instant. then she told me that it can be done instantly.. so i was shocked.. but ok.. then she took the blue one out to emboss.. THEN I GOT NTH TO SAY. cos she already swiped and all... so oh well..
i'm living with a gay POSB everyday GO! card, which is pretty useless because you cant use it online, and you can only use it like.. for shops/restaurants/axs machines.. basically personally.. damn ultra annoying =(
AH well.. so i'm trying to figure my e.maths now.. T.T .. most probably watching simpsons with charlene and manoj tonight.. we shall see... growlz0r
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Omg so i haven't blogged in ages.. like really ages.
Lots of things have happened in these few months that i haven't blogged heh.
I realised that people come and go in life alot, but sometimes the people that stay are those you notice the most.
Ok whatever.
Anyway. I can't believe that I've worked at pasta for almost 4 months. hahaha.
I guess i like the people i met here, and i dunno man. I just cant bear to leave, neither can anyone i think =p
Anyway, i'm in computer engineering at TP now. Haha. Not my first choice really, but if it gets me to where i want to go in the end, i guess i don't mind =p.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
You dreams grow big, your worries stay small..
You never need to carry more than you can hold.
And i'm kinda in love with someone :x
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Ok let me be fucking emo this post alright.
So i was just thinking today, i really want to do this joint polytechnic-SAF diploma scheme thing, but i don't even know if i've secured a place in my first two choices, vet tech at TP, or marine engineering at SP. It's quite a depressing thought. My dream was always to join the navy, the police force, the coast guard or the SCDF. Don't ask me why, i like the thrill of them all.
And today i was thinking if i'd feel the same a few years from now. Whether i'd have as much fun as i did. I miss the good times. I miss those times where you laugh and joke with friends, a moment locked in time that seems like its never going to end. I miss the times where i could joke about stupid things, with people to laugh with me. Im not a serious person, and i was never one. Hopefully i never will be one. Well, not serious to that extent anyway. Fuck this. I'm trapped in some void and i have no idea how to get out of it.
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Ps. before i start, all my entries will now be below this one :> so just scroll down for more entries.
Sometimes I wonder if life always went the way it was meant to be.
Because if it was, then why are some times just so hard to accept?
How are we expected to live life the way it's meant to be,
when what you want, isn't always what's meant to be.
Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
It seemed only yesterday, Sec One, and i had no idea where the science labs were, or the com labs.
Then it was sec two in a blink; faster than i could imagine. Too fast for me, but i scraped past to sec three. Still time went too fast for me. Sec four?! Jeez. To sum up my sec four life, "up; downs; rejects."
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
I wish you four-fivers the best luck you could get for your O's. Get somewhere please, it's just one more month, less actually. Sprint the last lap, even if you lose the race, just make it to the finish line.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
Time was never meant to fly past so fast. But then you feel reality slap you in the face, we're all moving all, we're all moving away.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Whatever we've done wrong, lets just all forget about it. We're all going to leave. There's no point holding a grudge. Think about this, what if, 10 years down the road, you look back and realise that you've never apologized to whoever. It always seems difficult. But i guess, whatever it is, it's time to do it.
@Chuwen,
We've always had our differences; and we still do. You can't say we'll be best friends in a snap, because it's not possible. But i just want you to know, if you ever come across this, that if you ever need help, i'll be here.
@Everyone else,
The same goes. I'll try my best not to change my number or my email. Keep in touch because i love you all.
To the rejected roots.
You're the reason why i've survived the two most crucial years of secondary school. Thanks for always being there.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.
KEEP ALL THE PHOTOS. THEIR WORTH THE MEMORIES.
I love you 4/5 2006. It's definitely been the time of my life.
EDIT : The following post is supposed to be 13th Oct 06 but i didn;'t want it to bump over this entry so i'm gonna do it here.
Today went back to school with zon and dele. Supposed to go for chem lessons but then i changed my mind. Sat there and did maths instead then later when they were done they came to find me and we went photo crazy. Like literally every single teacher we saw LOL.
Photos here :)
DELE, MRS JOSEPH & ME. She wanted a nice background. & She said she'd pay the EX-CO not to wash her car. LOL
ZONIA & MRS CHONG. She wanted flowers. LOL.
ADELE'S PRETENDING TO STUDY :]
MRS CHONG & I. HAHA Flowers again :X
ADELE AND MRS TAY. SAD. Adele surrendered her key :(
ZONIA, MR HAMZAH, ADELE & I. LOL I TOLD MR HAMZAH HE WAS TOO TALL SO HE DECIDED TO BEND DOWN.
MS CHUA. She's too tall too. But she didn't want to sit down alone ^^
MS LIM and I. Adele didn't want to take because she claimed She didn't know Ms Lim LOL. what a dumbo.
ZONIA, MRS BOO, ADELE AND I. Its a cute photo :]
ZONIA, ADELE & MR POH. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ADELE, MS TAN & I. Whats with the arm folding LOL.
ME, ZONIA, ADELE, MR LIAN. LOL I SWEAR ITS FUNNY.
ZONIA, MS PILO, I AND ADELE. IT WAS TOO DARK COS THE PHOTO-TAKER DIDNT KNOW HOW TO TAKE PHOTOS -.- SO I LIGHTENED IT. LOL
ONCE AGAIN, ZONIA, MR LIAN, ADELE & I.Steal away. I got a new digi cam :D i love my samsung digimax L60. Photos on monday & wednesday!
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gah. im such a loser.
geog. the only subject i ever .. scored at .. well.. kinda.
FAILED. this is so disheartening. I would say depressing but charlene would whack me.
Not like i haven't done so enough. Today was a mix of being high and being low. like. to the two extremes.
and i failed e.maths horribly. no surprise there..
gee. i'm such a failure :[
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i love this song. the grad night photos shall wait a little.
suddenly it's been replaying on my playlist. its ... inspirational. nah. it's not. i don't know what it is though.
Superman
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...i'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it's not easy
It's not easy to be me
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